F**K IT! tt word just blurt out after i read this sentence.. from that point of time, i couldnt tink str8.. i's practically panicking and kept asking others what excuses should i come up with to explain... i's really panicking and couldnt control my tears.. this OSIP is really important to me to change my life.. although mommy and sis is not very supportive over it.. i feel that its still a good learning platform for me, to grow up and experience a life away from home!

my dear friend, christina, was with me all the while.. (Thanks Friend!!) she said i werent thinking str8 cos i's panicking inside... so after i compose myself, i went to look for the lecturer, explained.. and of cos, being a cry baby, i couldnt control my tears again.. haha! although i know that he's just trying to 铫难我, i couldnt help it but worry about my placing... i fought so hard for my academic result to increase and.... ahhh~ but its all settled... (Once again, Thanks Friend!)

i like toking to friend... haha! cos we always talk about serious things... feel good to know there's someone which has the same frequency as you... toking about our future.. seriously, i think everyone out there is the same as me.. feeling scared about the future..

sigh~ i doubt this race gonna end any sooner cos i merely passed through my first hurdle.. think it'll only end when my 3.1 result is out.. it means i can safely concentrate on my OSIP in china...
总觉得我现在的心情跟杰的照片一样~