this week had been really exciting, and yet hectic, for me..
gotten answers from the various questions that had been going through my mind..
but.... the feeling i experience isnt quite the one i expected it to be..

a week of freshmen recruitment is finally over! response so far so good.. but the final result is yet to be revealed... lotsa people took de application forms but how many will be returned is still a mystery~ The new committee is not yet place into action but.. im startin to regret the decision i've made in the very beginning... spoke to chingwei wit poh de other day.. there're things which doesnt appear to be as simple as what we all thought it'll be... should we always doubt someone b4 we reveal one's trueself or should we just act the way the person want you to be?! tts a question never to be answered.. for now, i shall remain the way i am first.. and, 走一步看一步吧！！

and okay my dear friends, I AM GOING CHINA!! for good whole 5months.. tentative dates is from 12 sept till 25 jan, might leave earlier, but no idea yet... i werent tt delighted when i knew that i got in.. prolly because i realised tt there're now more better options left for us.. oh well~ isnt life always a case when u'll needa place a bet at the very point of time?! they said i's greedy but isnt all human beings like that?! they ask me to look on the bright side and be contented with what i have.. but isnt human beings always not satisfied with what they have?! im prolly just one of them.. BUT!! i love to deceive myself with beautiful lies, thats how i survive =)

Since i am going for this overseas trip, it means i must really start to save up.. enquired ducktour's job from shawn.. sent my resume yesterday, just hope for the best. going for this trip also means that i've to be more hardworking than the rest to maintain my placing.. attendance-wise, is okay.. academic-wise, thats a question.. tmr is the official first day of school! starting to feel a little tensed.. but i guess thats always de case of 1st day of school and subsequently, the PASSION will die off.. hahah~ oh mommy doesnt seems very supportive of my trip, kinda disappointing! cos i's expecting her to be supportive so as to boost my moral and the decision i've made.. i need affirmation from others to know that my decision is right, thats me! but, i guess she's just worried to send her little girl off to china for good whole 5 months. i'll miss her!! very badly!! =(

Today is my first REST DAY!! i couldnt remember when was the last time when i'd a chance to stay at home for the whole day to slack! watched 恶作剧之吻! its always nice to watch taiwan drama.. it trigger this little-fantasizing button in me to make me think of all those stuffs... i know its nothing but just a show, but is always this kinda show which makes people like me to believe in love again.. hahah! but sadly for now, i dont really believe in that anymore.. its IMPOSSIBLE!

i couldnt find my 棒棒堂's album!! am very sad.. when its everywhere i didnt wanna buy it, but when its nowhere to be found.... i am sad lah!! cant wait to go taiwan now!! waiting for our dear nana to confirm with us her timetable on saturday.. fish!! dun 4get! i doubt u'll since u're more excited than me.. haha.. i miss 棒棒堂! downloaded so many episodes but no time to watch it... im a really really busy woman alright!! lol

prolly i should blog once a week so that i can write only significant things.. haha! throughout the day, there're too many things i wanna share here. but i couldnt remember! "so do you still like him?" A question which i've heard thrice this week... ... ... ...~~