yday was PACE agm.. er as usual, saikang squad are afterall saikang squad.. poh & i were packin de leftover food & clearing de table after de agm, erh okay! we're in recep but sum guy happily went off... okay! i admit he's got de hight & all tt most girls will be attracted to.. but... tts.. grrr~ okay, quite obvious he's quite well-liked in pace, together wit some1.. & in pace, if u receive duties, it means sth good for u lah.. &... aiyah! better not tok abt it, jus sadden me.. was tokin to ortega abt it last nite.. she's sayin mayb im not those dey're lookin for.. then i ask myself, why did i join pace?! CRAP!!! & also.. concluded tt i cant please adults, esp those aunties & uncles.. haha! i dun hav de looks & those tao3 ren2 xi3 huan1 character... u noe, those ppl when dey see uncles/aunties, dey will like dem immediately.. to a certain extend, its jus in them lah!! & cfm i dun hav tt =( sickening!!! AH!!


seriously, regarding the previous events btwn tt guy who "scolded" me bcos i's helping him. i told shawn abt it, & hope *crossing fingers* tt he REALLY understand wad i meant when i told him those stuffs... ya~ & okay! i always tell myself not to be so "out-spoken"& "enthu" over certain stuffs.. but i cant help it, its jus in me.. is jus lk, i cant help but clearing mess for ppl & helping some1 when he/she is in a mess... buay tahan lah! sumtimes.. NO! most of de times, i tell myself

"jiamin! durin de next meetin, can u keep ur mouth SHUT!! for goodness!! keep to urself!! be laid back!! -slap- HEAR ME!!!"

but.. i cant!! seriously, there'r pros & cons to this kinda situation.. either ppl hate me to de extreme or tinks tt im good! agree?! [yes! -nod-] so..

JiaMin!!! try to control urself!! [but hey! i always tok when needed & when things are wrong wad?!] CRAP!!! ahhhhh!!!! dilemia!!!! -sigh-

very very extremely totally definitely confused!!! crap!!!
& im alittle lazy to edit my ssm posters but.. nida show every1 on Monday!! argh! oh! & i better get my people-network thingg good!!

"Jiamin!! jiaYou!!! buck up!!"