[Getting myself away before the rest gets me; Schizophrenia]

[XOXO]

Saturday, February 05, 2005

i didnt dare to swtich on my hp today! im afraid tt wad if he didnt even bother to reply my msg.. but still, i switched it on at arnd 9+ durin GP... i received a sms!! but true enuff, its not from him but from aloysius... at tt moment, i's totally shattered.. but it jus shows tt im nth in wayne's heart, jus a passer-by, i guess... ...

went for blood donation today too! he didnt donate n i dunnoe why... i had a really good view of him today with ruth's help, but so wad? he did turn n glance over at times afterall... but...so? tts de confusin part... mayb he's jus lookin arnd for other ppl... daniel was there with us durin our turn.. wad a nice guy he is.. keep tellin us its okay n dun b scared... me n ruth's blood flows real fast man... we're like faster than de others.. haha! im healthy man! hmm...

im veh ngry with sum1 today... veh ngry! he shouted at me infront of his friens...i's shocked so i jus walked away w/o sayin much... i mean, wad do u wan me to say rite?.. rubbish la!

went shoppin with my mom sis n auntie today.. went to look for amy while dey shoped.. was tokin for awhile then went off.. n i saw aloy huiyi n gang there... at first dey didnt see me, xcept dis marist guy whom i dunnoe de name..then aloy n huiyi came to look for me, crap abit then went off.. n while i's in dis shop, saw cheryl from st john... she;s workin in dis shop [which i dunnoe de name]...in PS, i saw Robin from OG2, he's with his other friens.. i guess he didnt go for Jason's bday thingg oso bah... then saw Melanie, said "hi" then went off lo... after tt, saw wan Ying in samuel n kevin workin there.. poor girl, so tired already still must work.. ahah! i oso wan but too bad, no1 wanna employ me...haha! hmm... my mom keep sayin tt i've friens everywhere...haha! indeed huh!! =)