[Getting myself away before the rest gets me; Schizophrenia]

[XOXO]

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

WADS HAPPENIN???????!!!!
gosh~ im like feeLin mixed, confused, disappointed, tired n aLways so distracted!!
wassup with me? yday durin break in de audi with all SJC girls, lights off n so diam arnd [though there'r sum TK girls dancin there]... i wAs like....feel like cryin~ i really dunnoe wad went wrong in me.. xiao wei asked me whether am i okay, of cos i said yes... im really okay but..........grrr~ dunnoe la... so many problems arnd me recently!! actually dey'r not problems but it seems like it to me.. i always dun get de thing i wan [though dey always say one will always nv satisfy their needs] but.... haiyo~ i think i oso dunnoe wad im tokin now.. crap~

im always receivin differenet msges from wayne... he's makin me really confused.... does he feel how im feelin towards him? or is he like tryin to shoo me off? amy always say i think too much.. but i jus cant help it!... tts my personality! n every1 is tellin me different thing abt wayne... goodness! wheneva i try to 4get abt him, de more i'll tink abt it.... sigh*